What're your questions for the world?

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Hey! This blog is about asking questions that're on my mind or that people may ask me. These are not little questions really and they can have multiple answers so feel free to answer them as you see fit. The whole point of the site is to have people think about the world and the way things are. If you don't agree with something I've said tell me why with a comment (you have to have a google account), but please don't use that as a way to be obnoxious. Everything is pretty much up in the air when it comes to what you think and how you feel about something so I can't really set down any guidelines other than don't be too judgmental of another comment or of something I may have said.

Stay open-minded and hear people out. =]

Hope you enjoy and don't criticize what I'm trying to say too harshly. Although of course I'm open to criticism and debates. =]

-Asking_Why

Also...Email me @: tomiahayes@yahoo.com if you have a question you'd like to have posted on the site. Remember they have to be versatile and have many possible answers and they can't be...child-ish.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Is: There Such Thing As A Happy Birthday?

       I feel as if "Happy Birthday" is a false statement. Is there really such thing as a "Happy" birthday?... Today's my birthday, and I feel as though everything's turned against me. I don't feel like today's as happy as people tell me it is. My birthday...My birthday. Who would've thought that I'd be here typing this entry about how my birthday turned out to be one of the worst days of my life. I've never cared about the presents, the people all around, or the fact that I've even aged a year. I just never want to be burdened by the people in my life...But I feel as though every year the same thing happens: I end up crying myself to sleep. 

       My grandmother past away on my birthday years ago...it's always stuck with me. It's never going to leave me. There's no way for it to. Just with that being on my brain every year is enough to drive someone like me to tears...every year when I wake up at midnight to wish myself a "Happy" birthday. That's not the only thought that comes to mind every year...There's another that's on my mind almost everyday. The fact of growing older and still being the same. The same person everyone seems to be ashamed of. Sure, the family doesn't say it, but the way they all act towards me...A complete stranger would be able to see it. It's sad when an acquaintance comes up to you and asks if you're alright after they see how much of an oddball you are in your family, how much you're family treats you as a kind of outsider, even those who swear up and down they never will. 

       All I'm trying to say is...maybe there is such a thing as a "Happy Birthday"...Maybe someone in the world has one every year with nothing going wrong. MAYBE. Just maybe. I just know that's not how this is going for me. It went great at first...I didn't think anything would change my mind...But now as I write this I'm close to tears...Just like I am every year. EVERY year. If someone asked me what my birthday wish was I'd say: To have a "Happy Birthday".....You'd think that's an easy thing to be done, but October 25th is proof that that's not true at all.

       I'm telling you I don't believe in "Happy Birthday" but hey...You're not me I'm not you. Is there such thing as a Happy Birthday? You tell me....
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